Friday night I saw a band called, “The Ghost of Paul Revere,” at a place called Schubas Tavern. The band played Folk Rock, which I believe is the genre. They had a banjo and a harmonica. They kicked ass! Schubas is a pretty cool small music venue. It reminded me of “Union Pool” in Brooklyn. I realized that I need to see more live music. I’ve been in Chicago for 5 months and have only been to a couple music venues!?!??! What the hell are you doing Max!?!!
I am preparing for a long cold winter in Chicago. Life has been pretty good so far. My sister visited a few weeks ago with her friend from back home. We had a great time and got to catch up. Then my cousins from Puerto Rico came by to visit. It was great to see them also. We don’t all get to see each other as much as we did when we were kids. Family forever!
Right now, I’m trying to focus on my mind, body, and spirit. I started reading a Thich Nhat Hanh book about mediation. I’ve also started back at Crossfit and have been getting my ass kicked. Taking a month off for my trip to Spain made me weak. A couple weeks ago I could barely walk for a couple days because my bones felt broken. Last week we did an ab workout and I felt like I couldn’t stand up straight, leaning over like an old man.
I figure by punishing my body, my mind and spirit will be improved. I have too much energy otherwise and tend to spend it poorly if I don’t tire myself out. The drinking needs to slow down a bit. That will definitely help. But, it’s football season. There’s always a decent excuse to drink.
Halloween is coming up. I’m sure I will have a random weekend full of drinking and poor decisions.
I’ve been noticing a phenomenon, which may just be in my neighborhood, but I think it’s more widespread. Gay men and straight women in intimate relationships…
What the hell is going on? It’s like a kid playing with blocks and trying to fit the triangle piece into the circle hole. Both people are just wasting their time. They are closing themselves off from potentially meeting the right person. Are people really that afraid to be alone that they choose to be in a relationship they can’t have?
I really don’t understand the Tinder and Bumble thing either. I think it’s great if people actually meet from these apps, but it just doesn’t seem real. These are really a couple of porn apps. The people in these pictures may not even look like their picture. I may just be a sore loser because I haven’t met anyone on these apps, but I prefer to meet people in REAL LIFE! You know, that thing where you somehow muster the balls to approach someone using your mouth to say words and listen to them with your ears?
We are devolving into a really screwed up state of mind. We want instant gratification. We want everything yesterday. Life takes time. There’s a huge difference between taking a plane somewhere and walking there. We are conscious of our short time here on earth, but I think we are going about it the wrong way.
Who knows, maybe this is just the future. I imagine it’s going to get much worse before it gets better.
The book I’ve been reading had something great to say about being selfish. Taking care of ourselves and our own interests is actually the least selfish thing we can do. We are all connected, so everything we do to help ourselves reduces the work that someone else has to do for us. If you make yourself happy, you will subconsciously make others happier around you. We can try to help other people, but our energy is better spent on ourselves. If someone has a drug addiction, they have to resolve it on their own. If they were to help themselves out with their problem, they will decrease the stress and worry of others around them.
An example would be someone who wants to stop world hunger who goes out in the field and doesn’t take care of themselves. They don’t exercise, they don’t sleep, and they forget to eat sometimes. This person then becomes sick and can’t help anyone. Now, other people have to take care of this person. By taking care of your body, mind, and spirit, you will be able to help others more sustainably.
You are the person you have to deal the most with for the rest of your life. You will die with this person. You were born with this person. You better start building trust and friendship with yourself, because you will be there every step of the way.